Am I alone?

I found myself wrestling the idea in my mind whether or not to create some sort of blog to explain my story, I struggled with the idea that I would probably be criticized in doing so. In the end, I chose to face that fear in hopes that in doing so it will let other women know that they aren't alone in their daily battle with these so called 'Muslim" men. My story begins 6 years ago while I was working for a local cell phone store. While there, I happened to meet a group of collage students from Saudi Arabia, we immediately became friends and, I immersed my self in their culture and even converting to Islam. My family was concerned with this but, I assured them I knew what I was doing. During this time I met a man named Sultan and he and I became almost inseparable. I found I had so much in common with this beautiful man from the other side of the world. We would spend hours talking about our lives and the possibility of our lives together in the future. His family knew of me, and his intention to marry me or so I thought. Three years into our relationship I get pregnant, and from that moment on our lives would never be the same. When I told the father about the pregnancy he changed so much saying that I became pregnant on purpose and that I have to have an abortion if I wanted to keep him. I refused to have an abortion during any circumstance and even the thought of killing my child to keep a man that had completely just done a Jekyll and Hyde routine on me was absurd to say the least. During my pregnancy, we would speak often where I tried to get him interested in the baby, having him throw it back in my face saying he never wanted "it". Threatening that he has family that if they knew would come here to America and kill me and the baby if I ever told anyone. This is the same man that only mounts ago was telling me how much he loved me and showered me with gifts that I didn't even know I wanted. This poor Saudi man now no longer has a single penny to give to his child, strange right? In my own personal life my biological father abandoned my mother and I, and to this day I carry that pain around like an anvil on my chest, so I am somewhat bias to the situation and I didn't want my son to carry that same pain about his real father. However I know now that my son will not have to carry such a heavy weight for he has been blessed with a wonderful Step Father, who loves him as his own flesh and blood. How great is that!! My husband now faces the problem with me do we ever tell him about his real father or don't we? These are the same questions that any woman with children who happen to have a deadbeat dad ask, the difference lies with the Saudi Students and what they can do to us women if they so chose to. These Students sign a contract when they leave there kingdom to study abroad that states several crazy rules they must abide by. Men impregnating a woman they aren't married to is a large violation and they not only can but will lose their scholarship and be deported if the information gets back to the embassy in Riyadh . That is the first hurdle us women face, your pregnant you can tell no one or there will be repercussions. An example of this is after I had my child the fathers best friend's girlfriend got pregnant too, I happen to be in the room when they discussed getting a root from Saudi that would make the girl in question abort her babies at 4 months along. Luckily I was there and I told them that if anything happened at all to this woman I would go to the police. The woman mentioned was never physically harmed although physiologically she is going through the same torture as many of us. Now that the pregnancy hurdle has been passed and you have this wonderful child ...now what? Well if the father's name is on the birth certificate you must be aware that if you travel with your child to Saudi Arabia you might not ever get your child back. Men have say there not like here. Remember it is a completely different culture that most western women scratch their heads at. My intention is not to daddy bash although my anger and pain is completely warranted. I have recently started an organization called Saudi Children Left Behind (SCLB) where I hope to lend support and eventually some financial support to those women in similar situations. In doing this I also hope to unite as many women as possible. I will make my son proud in knowing that his Mother never gave up the fight for his right to have a voice to his biological father. As it stands when these guys go home they are gone to us and our children forever, who keeps tabs on these men? The answer Ladies and gentleman is not a single person. The Kingdom of Saudi Arabia punishes these guys for the act of sex and then these men turn around and hurt us leaving us holing a baby and our hearts wondering what happened. Then I have found when you speak out to the injustice you are criticized and ridiculed, called names like whore. First off Arab men get this through your heads we aren't whores!!! Guess what buddy your in my country where women are allowed to have sex without being stoned to death. Secondly if you tell a woman you love her and want to marry her the strangest thing happens ....she believes you. Third and this might come as a shock I know but it takes two to get pregnant and no we didn't get pregnant on purpose just so we could keep your cousin marring butt!!!! If your going to study here guy learn the culture!!!!! That being said ladies you must protect yourself too. I know like me you are angry and frustrated and probably confused and no one is offering support. Well ladies this is the best country in the world(in my opinion) and there is nothing that can stop us here. That being said I do need your help!!!! I need to gather as much support as possible so KSA will take notice and work towards a solution. I understand any fears you might have in coming forward, when I created the SCLB Group the father of my child broke into my house hacked my computer and to this day get daily prank calls from him and his friends, childish huh!! We must be tenacious in our dealings with these men. Our children deserve not to be forgotten, and abandoned like they were just there wild fling in America. We must fight to hold these men accountable for their actions and show our children that we will never let them down. Will anyone stand with me?